today i wrote notes and sent pictures to my kids from summer camp. i'm not bragging or trying to make anyone think i'm such a sweet, good person. rather, this post is an apology to everyone i haven't kept in touch with, to the people i said i would write and call and visit, but never did. i did feel a little wave of satisfaction wash over me when i looked at this nice little stack of letters, but almost instantly i was sickened by the thought of all the letters over the past few years that i should have written, of the adresses in notebooks and empty promises i made and of the good intentions i had with no follow through. i'm sick of not being a person of action, of not being someone who follows through with my word . so apologies to shanikque and whitney in oakland, to my mission year teammates, to teresa while she was india, to luis and rosita in mexico, and to anyone else i have not let know that i miss and love when they are outside of my day to day life.