a little miracle

after a horrific night last night and awful day today, i feel somewhat better about everything that has happened the past two weeks. first, i felt a lot better knowing that beth, james, kim, and mike went back over to aaron's party to try to help the situation; something i wish i could have done, but i was an absolute wreck. between the crap josh started with jason schmidt and then having him ruin another party not to mention the fact that he was being completely awful to my husband on the phone, i could not take anymore emotionally. i don't know if that means i'm a weak person, or if i feel too bad about things that really aren't my fault; i just know i couldn't handle it anymore. but tonight, being surrounded by people who truely are my freinds, including jason and aaron-the two people most affected by the two incidents- made me feel so much better. i didn't know if these incidents were going to cause riffs in our friendships with these people, but tonight gave me some peace about it all, and while i don't know what is going to happen with josh, i'm glad that jason and i have friendships with people that are not transient. in a small way, tonight feels like a miracle, especially compared to last night.
and now i am going to go and sleep.