explodium!

james, kim, and beth came over tonight and we cooked. we made peanut soup, tikki masala, and strawberry rhubarb pie. the group cooking effort reminded me of mission year and family dinner nights. the strawberry rhubarb pie reminded me of troy and our shared love for it. i miss those people so much, that was such a good and healthy time of my life. but i do feel like over the past few months, life has become much better and i am thankful for our current group of friends. i think one of the main reasons i was so upset over everything that happened over the last few weekends with josh is that i felt like we had such a nice group of friends and pretty much anyone was welcome in that group and josh totally disrupted that harmony. it's sad because josh was coming around more and i thought he liked hanging out with all of us. i know i liked having him around. sigh.
tomorrow is my mom's birthday and we are all (chiariz 5) going to the museum to see the bog people. i wish jay could come but he has to do stupid truck at 5am. sigh again.